Doctor's Orders

The doctor* is in.

"Rarely have wiser words been spoken.

Read these, embrace them as my goodwill token" 

- S.

1. Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.


2. You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go. With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.


3. Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.


4. We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.


5. If things start happening, don't worry, don't stew, just go right along and you'll start happening too.


6. Be sure when you step, Step with care and great tact. And remember that life's A Great Balancing Act. 


7. Only you can control your future. 


8. If you want to catch beasts you don't see every day, you have to go places quite out of the way. You have to go places no others can get to. You have to get cold and you have too get wet, too.


9. Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.



*All wonderful pieces of cake courtesy of Dr Seuss.

Ephemeral* Cake

Some of the wonderful words of Antoine de Saint-Exupéry from The Little Prince.

1. All grown-ups were children first. (But few remember it).

2. If I were to command a general to turn into a seagull, and the general does not obey, it would not be the general's fault. It would be mine.

3. It is much harder to judge yourself than to judge others. You are only truly wise if you succeed in judging yourself.

4. Language is the source of misunderstandings.

5. One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eye.

6. We must endure the presence of two or three caterpillars if we wish to become acquainted with the butterflies.

7. No one is ever satisfied where he is.

8. The meaning of things lies not in the things themselves, but in our attitude towards them.

9. Love does not cause suffering: what causes it is the sense of ownership, which is love's opposite.

10. If you want to build a ship, don't drum up people together to collect wood or assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.

11. The time for action is now. It's never too late to do something.

12. "How could drops of water know themselves to be a river? Yet the river flows on."

*Ephemeral: that which is in danger of speedy disappearance

Meet me halfway

February 14, 2008 (Chick-flick day)

1. I am being offered something that I don't want. I will refuse (albeit hesitantly). The outcome will be positive (there is light ahead of me. It is good but far. I am looking at this 'light' and doing anything and everything in order to attain it)
2. Meeting: Along with one other person, I will meet someone important but also very nice, will give me a lot of ideas, which require hard work. This person has a great POV.
3. I will meet a guy who is very interested in me--WARNING: he only wants to play around, not sincerily interested. My mistake? I am going to tell someone else about this which is going to make them upset. One good thing will come out of telling. (nice and vague, thanks Mom)
4. Lately, there is a person (namely, guy) in my life- contact with this guy has decreased his contact with me, but despite this, he is still "there" and listening to me. I want him to know certain things and listen to certain points and ultimately he will be convinced.
5. There is someone who is supporting me and 'carrying' me in many aspects of my life.
6. I have been busy a lot lately; not in the mood to party anymore; missing someone.

Newsworthy

December 9th, 2007

1. Revolution: I go through excitement about something but now it's gone away--this had worried me earlier, but now it is disappearing. Related to something professional rather than personal.
   
2. Very loyal friend: this person sometimes annoys me and gets on my nerves. Now he/she is confused but I will not know how to help or what to do. We will boh avoid the subject.
   
3. NEWS: 2 pieces-
   (a) Big & Important: will find out in the upcoming few days. I will be surprised. This news is related directly to me. I will be happy :) (--Note: coincided with my Dec. trip to Ammanland.)
   (b) Small & Sweet: the news will come from afar (geographically). About someone else. Will also make me happy :) [Happiness; always good]
   
4. Race: between me and another person who is "stronger" and has a "further reach". Despite being "smaller or weaker", I am catching up to them. The overall tone is good.
   
5. Guy (recurring from before?): has strong feelings towards me. Really cares for me. Not sure about my feelings towards him. Relying on time to clear it up and establish my true feelings. Some complications to think about. There is a girl involved who I will discuss this with--she is the only person that I will be truly honest with. She unintentionally reveals my hesitancy to him. He is not perturbed and continues to have strong feelings towards me. The outcome is unclear but there is a sense of attachment already.
   
6. I will hear about someone who is seriously sick. They are not getting better. This person is not related (socially or family-wise) to me.

There is a recurring theme of racing, romantic confusion and change. Ah...only time will tell!

Spinning 180º

October 28th, 2007 (3:10pm)
(Disclaimer: slightly on the philosophical side; thank you mother!)

1. I am sitting at the summit--everything around me appears lower than me. I am standing alone. There are ideas that I want to pursue and fulfill. There is an obstacle--a dark cloud above me which I cannot see. I won't realise this until I am "there". I am perhaps choosing not to get there.
   
2. Male presence: On some level, I see "perfection" in him--it is not clear in what sense. Despite this, I cannot get along with him because we are not on the same page; we have very different ways of thinking. This person will remain in my life for some time until another girl "shows up" (not romantically involved) and changes the way I feel towards him.
   
3. Ladder: I am climbing and there is no-one else climbing with me. Climbing very slowly. If/when someone decides to start climbing too, I will have to move faster.
   
4. There is going to be a 180º change in my life (yes exciting...ish!) after meeting someone who I eventually fall in love with. (Yes, love.) This guy appears virtually from nowhere; we had met before but I did not consider that we may be suited. He pursues me for a short period of time and the feelings develop into mutuality. THIS IS GOING TO CHANGE MY LIFE. I will be "embracing" him (best translation from Arabic that I could muster...) There will be one small incident that will disappoint me slightly but it will not matter because I will change my thoughts because of this person. This person is a "foreigner" in the geographic sense. Socially, we are from different circles and environment but sharing a strong link. The key word is CHANGE.
   
5. There is a male whose name starts with the letter B: this person keeps going in and out of my life. He provides me with attention on a constant basis. This is not necesarily a romantic interest. Even though I enjoy the attention somewhat, I am uninterested and it doesn't really affect me.
   
6. BEWARE: Female friend--I confide in her regularly. She is, in fact, relaying my mesages to the people which are involved in our discussions. Possibly, but not necessarily, a professional acquaintance.

On the whole, quite interesting. Some things which may be playing out and others which, obscure and vague, mean very little to me as of yet.

As with all things, only time will tell.

(If you posess any information pertaining to the above or any other of my readings, do not hesitate to share...)

Over-utilized and under-used

After having almost exhausted the topic of keeping secrets, I started to wonder about the virtue of honesty. Since I'm a fan of analogies and examples, here's one to make life easier.

Let's say there's a girl. And she's in love with this guy. We'll call her Sheryl and we'll call him Mike for now. Sheryl thinks Mike is hot, Mike finds Sheryl attractive. They've known each other for a few years now, maybe three. One day, Sheryl wakes up to the realization that the explanation for that uneasy feeling in the pit of her stomach is that thing we call love. She's in love. With Mike. But Mike on the other hand, is possibly in love with someone else. Someone he can't have. But instead of doing the gentlemanly thing of putting Sheryl out of her misery and acting uninterested, distant and aloof, he makes the classic move of doing this part-time while sending out his famous male cocktail of mixed signals (sans olive) for the other half. Ignoring Sheryl is his usual behavior, but every once in a while, to keep things exciting, and Sheryl on her toes, he puts out his bat-signal. "I'm into you," it says to Sheryl. And we're not talking vague and open to misinterpretation "eye-contact" here; we're talking an undisputable message, but strangely without the fine print of an RSVP or even a return address. Both parties know that the message was sent and in turn received, but neither acknowledge its delivery. Her heart beats a million miles a minute, it drowns out everything else. His heart beats.....well this is the problem: we simply don't know.

And this is where our elusive friend Honesty pops in, rearing her frightening head and triggering what can only be dramatically described as a downward-spiraling obsession. At this point, Sheryl thinks: Maybe I should come clean. We're adults. It's not like I won't recover from this. What's the worst that could happen? At least I'll know once and for all where I stand.

But she does nothing.

People always say "honesty is the best policy"; possibly the most over-utilized but under-used clichés around. We throw it around like we would a frisbee on a Saturday afternoon. Easily, breezily... But like a frisbee, much simpler in theory. What we forget to consider is the wind direction, the glare of the sun, the gradient of the slope and, most importantly, the other frisbee-throwers.

In theory it's a great idea, but practically, we always end up lying on the prickly grass, staring at odd cloud formations with our lips firmly sealed, just hoping not to get hit by a rogue frisbee...